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    8/19/2008

    Diary For August 19th

    Where R U?

     
    When I was listening to my CD, there is a song singing that "It's easy to find the right one, while Miss Wrong will not easily come to you." Is that really the truth? There is, however, another saying that "Exception proves the truth." Oh god! I am the EXCEPTION!
    I wanna ask why it is that difficult when turning to me? Am I incomplete, or, invisible? There are always Miss Wrong! Why??
     
    It seem that I haven't Update my Weblog for long. Why am I always so upset? Why there is so many whys for me? Why?
     
    Brotherhood is getting married, what makes me keen for a stabel love that end up in marriage. But this seems so difficult for me, I think, and so is the reality!  I don't know why, and I used to desire to know, not now, nor the future...
     
    Maybe I was waiting for someone, but someone where R U...
    4/6/2008

    Diary For April 6th

    I planned to paste a article named A Mother's Place in this diary. But I can not find it on the internet, and I am too lazy to type all the words here, so I give it up, and decide to write something else.
    I was just after the class of An Intermediate Course of Interpretation. So put some photos on here.
     

    Computer And Book And My Hand

    Am I Sleepy?

    Photos take more place, so I can write less.

    Whoa, a long holiday has just passed away. What left to me is starting again to struggle for life. So comfused, I am in a contrary. The hesitation is nearly tear my brain apart. I don't know if I will study that hard to get the access to my master degree in Nanjing University. Or should I be so inocent about my future? Am I a complete human being? Oh fuck! This kind of thought is always fucking me. And the longer I hesitate, the more reluctant I wanna study. Who can make me survive?

    P.S. Spring is coming, one is likely to feel sleepy and tire all the time, especially for me...

    3/24/2008

    Diary For March 24th

    Overcome the Unfairness
     
    I don't know anything about my future. It seems too complicated for me to understand. Confronting with destiny, each single person may feel helpless, thus falls into depression.
    It is a nice day this morning, but weather forecast said that it will rain today. If the forecast is correct, how can it change so much in a day? However, misfortune in our life is unpredictable. What will happen is unsure, one cannot know how it will be accurately.
    There are so many examples that one can reap what they sowed, but there are also lots of opposite examples. Because of this unfairness, many dropped what they saw is that in many occasions it is the same to have strugled and have not.
    But unfairness is nature, it exists when the world exists. It is the unfairness that makes human stronger.
    So, no more grumble, and keep strugling for life.
    2008.03.23
    1/5/2008

    Diary for January 5th

    A long time of reviewing my last two course of this semester. I don't want to say that word, but... FUCK! I don't know what made so upset, I can hardly concentrate on remembering the disgusting theory. But... world is thavelling, and I have to live. So get down to continuing the annoyable work!
    I want to play, just like yesterday's happiness. Though there were two boys, but the chatting during the dinner release both of us. It was long time I was so near to my desired happiness. So, today I kept thinking about someone else's lif style. And my desire of playing for fun instead of studying the tedious courses that are to be tested in the next week.
    I am in a tumultuous passion! Oh my god! The single idea in my mind si to pass the exams in the shortest time! Either going home or staying at school is comfortable for me, when there is no fucking exam!
    God bless me, though I believe in no god!!
    12/4/2007

    Diary for December 4th

    Nothing interesting happened today, but the feeling of boring is growing. Cannot I really do something, something that is kinda venture for me. The desire to travel abroad is annoying me always, especially after the sunday course "British Culture" the desire is even stronger!
    Er, going abroad sounds so far away, doing something for sure is what I want. I am planning to build up a web site. Of course, this thought may be copied from some well-known successful examples. A small site became a success, and earned lots of money, bla bla...
    But I just want to do something to do something!
    Time limited, so end here.
    11/17/2007

    Diary for November 17th

    My favorite number is 7. So no matter which number contains "7", (17, 37 etc.)I also love. But today seems to be an exception. I caught a cold almost 7 days ago, but I couldn't feel a little better, even worse in actually fact.
     
    In this blog page, I want to talk about recent messages recieved by my cell phone. My fellow bros, Older Bro Lotus and Younger Bro Huayu. Lotus is as busy as a bee now, for, maybe, his career. Being too busy to send messages, he can only send or reply messages at night, after 11:00, maybe much later than that. I send him a message, when I sleep, the phone shut; when I get up, start the phone, then I receive his reply. It's not exaggerated, it's been like this for a time. At least Bro Lotus do reply me, but it's not so when messages are sent to Bro Huayu. Huayu is never ready to reply you, oh maybe me, just me. But this is more or less we are a little alike each other, I don't like to send a reply either, especially some unnecessary ones. Well what made me amazed is that Bro Huayu send me a message first, the phenomenon that've hardly happened before. I must reply, because what goes around comes around, if I did not, no replies followed. So I made up my mind to reply each single message in so far as possible.
     
    I'm busy on weekends, much easier on workdays or studydays. I've owed Bro Huayu a meal. But weekend are not the days I can treat him. So ah, erm, well, then... I don't know how to deal with it. I made it a promise, what's more, Huayu is the person I have the sense of Deja Vu. No matter it is friendship or brotherhood, I just want to cherish it, don't want lose something anymore.
     
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    A copy from my other blog site: http://tommyseaking.blog.tom.com
    2007.11.17
    今天终于可以让部落格“与时俱进”了,下午醒后闲在无聊,开始敲本本写点东东。早上的一片感冒药,一直把我的头冲晕到下午,仿佛一整个人都生活在迷幻的世界里。大家都有事做,去自习室的Study,去网吧的Happy,自己一个人在床上混淆着现实和梦境与病魔挣扎着。通常都说感冒不用针不用药,挨过七天保准好。可是每次到我这儿,绝对是挑战这句说法,第六天第七天的时候,能严重到不去打吊针就痛苦死的地步。P.S.这不是夸张。
    过会儿(It's 2:30 now)加晚上还有双英的课,把自己投入到学习中估计,不会这样浑身别扭了吧。自己的时间跟别人的有点倒置,周末通常是最忙的时间,Happy的时间通常都被放到平常中了吧。仔细一想。真的很难找出一大块儿的时间来做一些自己的事儿,即使有,也不是用来洗澡洗衣服,就是用来补作业写报告了。像大一时候那样的有时间自己出去瞎晃的机会几乎不存在了。自己还总能够赶上每一次流行起来的感冒,每一次,一点都不含糊。估计我体内有最适合感冒病毒繁衍生息的条件。
    今天上午也挺有意思,宿舍里大家都去忙了,留我一个病源在。索性在楼里同学宿舍乱窜,东偷偷西偷偷,搞了一本吉他谱,一个Capo,闷在宿舍潜心钻研“艺术”。剪了“愤青儿”头,却回头爱上了吉他,摸着左手指肚的茧子,不知道该心疼还是高兴。估计是心疼,都磨成那样了,弹吉他还是那么糟烂,可怜我的手啊!所以每天抓紧练习么,要不然手指不就白疼了吗……
    还有什么想说的?哦,对了,最近一直在听的一张CD——彭坦-[少年故事]。没怎么听过“达达乐队”的歌,却对彭坦的这次复出感到惊艳。我认为这是内地今年非常难得的一张好唱片,并不是因为我的这张CD上面有坦坦的签名——说出来显摆显摆——真的是因为好听喜欢听才像在这儿磨叽磨叽。每次连续听下来,都是一种无比羡慕的感情,吉他弹得真的好帅!扫弦那种力量感,GOD,我没辈子能赶上了。每首歌都能唱到心里去,每首歌都是经典啊!但唯一不足的是,听得多了难免会有“愤青儿”心理作祟,风格过于统一也许会有一点点单调吧,不过好在我还没有听腻。偶尔也跟着坦坦唱上两句“你说一切都会被风儿带走,就让风儿带着我们飘……”那感觉,贼好!
    上课快到点儿了,不能再写了……
    11/14/2007

    Diary For November 11

    2007.11.10
    Another Saturday has gone, and it's its end now. Tomorrow is the troditional festival Singles Day. Because November 11th is "11.11" containing four "1" four singles. It's a quite popular festival among colledge students. It is a trick, but we like to take it serious. It has noting to do with the lovers, not mentioning the couples. Singles Day is for us singles. Having no sweethearts, singles are supposed to feel ashame. But single is simple, double is trouble. Singles Day is a happy day for us, at least for me it is a happy day.
     
    Stop talking 'bout Singles Day. Wish my friends who are still single a happy day, find the one as soon as posible if they want.
     
    About today's composition "An Unforgetalbe Experience in My Childhood". After seeing this title, a sudden consciousness stuck on my mind. What is left about my childhood in my memory? The first paragraph I used the expression "the most unforgetable", but now I know I was wrong. The experiences, the things, that I can recall is in my memory. There is no comparative at all, no "more" or "most". What is remembered is what is unforgetable. Luckily, there are indeed some things unforgetable about my childhood, even if not that many, they are enough.
    11/12/2007

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    2007.11.06

    哈哈,又交了一个小弟。也是,我这岁数在学校里都能排上名次了,也就没什么意思天天装纯了。(以纯——以为自己很纯——有一件很的外套很好看,没问题的话,准备近期出手,并将装纯进行到底……)说到化宇这孩子,挺怪的,我也就想起了义桥同学。但化宇比义桥要忧郁些,和他接触的几次总觉得他很有心事的样子。义桥就是个虎头虎脑的大孩子,嘻嘻哈哈,乐天派。化宇的骨子里可是很执拗的咧,总之就是代沟在作祟,不知道这帮孩子们究竟都想些什么。感觉对不起他们的就是……算了不说了,都过去了,大家都已经开始正常的学习生活,就不要拿旧事来自讨没趣。至少我知道,他们都是好孩子,努力过,便不后悔。

    欧了欧了,太困了,明天再写吧……

    Nov 6th 2007

    Hah hah! I made another younger brother, after Baby Yang. That's not surprising for my age can be in the top range of the school. So it's no longer interesting to act as a little boy everyday.

    Mentioning the younger brother Huayu, I've got I lot of words. First, sorry, then good luck, and then spirit up. No matter what had happened to him, frustration, unfortuness, and even failure, he had experienced all of these sufferance, and had been ready to start a new. Retelling the past can only brings something dampen us down. At least I know he is a good guy, including Yiqiao, they are all good boys, no matter what others said. They have tried, and will never look back...

    So much for today, and I'm sleepy, leave some words to tomorrow...

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    2007.11.09

    想得挺多,想讨论一下。

    关于CET4、6级口语报名未遂的事儿,一直让我耿耿于怀。哈市真的是没有很熟的同学在,报名交钱还非要到现场去交,还偏偏赶上前八周的结业考试。左问右问同时报的难兄难弟难姐难妹,要不不知道,要不就没打算,其中不乏交不上就不考的人。6号最后期限,也怪我傻Β什么事都不放在心上,忘了最后期限了,再碰到那些同时报的鬼们,发短信问,都他妈的想办法把钱交了。到最后,把交不上就不考这句奉行到底的傻Β是我!我以为大学以后我就不再那么天真地冒傻气了,可是我还是没有聪明到哪里去。虽说这事儿谁也不赖,就赖自己,也不涉及欺骗与被欺骗这等上纲上线的原则问题,但是就是让我有那么很大一些些不爽,Fuсk!

    另外就是一些微微琐琐的小事儿。本来也想提一提,抒发下,再想算了,也没什么,过去吧,过去吧……

    About CET band 4 and band 6, having not applicated for the oral test keeps me brooding on and on. After think for a long while I realized that I really got no classmate very familiar in Harbin. It is required that the applicant should hand in the fee at the examination school in Harbin. After keeping asking the coexaminee (classmates who tend the same exam with me) around how to hand in the fee for test 'cause Daqing is a little far away from Harbin and the timing is so inproper that it crashes with my own examination for the first half semester, I got an answer that "If couldn't give up." November 6th is the deadline, all because of my foolishness, care about nothing that I finally forget the time limit, actually I've never known the limit. Meeting the coexaminee again, to my surprise, all of them had handed in the fuking fee! It turns out that the fuking asshole that stuck to "If couldn't give up" till the end is me! I think that I am not so foolish as I was before university. But I'm still more stupid than everage.

    I'm still more stupid than the fucking everage.

    7/6/2007

    Being Vulgar

    我开始不避讳说 我真正喜欢听的歌 是能取悦我的歌 而不是故意的去找一些高深的有内涵的东西来听
    I've learned not to evade to say that what can delight me is what I really like, not those highbrow music I have artificially looked for.
    我忽然发现我那样很傻 错过了好多 我也不会再去对谁谁说 你怎么听这样的糟烂歌呀
    I really found that's so stupid that I had missed a lot. And I will never tell others that their favourite song is rubbish, never again.
    那样真的很不懂事 自己不喜欢并不代表这首歌不适合别人的心情
    It's not wise to say so, for I don't like never means the song doesn't fit for others.
    傻傻地追求一些高调 反而自己有些吃不消
    Like a fool, I am blindly crazy to seek something so called profound, too profound for me to understand and digest.
    我本就是一个俗人吧……
    I myself am a vulgar man.
     
     
    5/1/2007

    Lonely So Boring~

    又一个 不回家的五一长假。怎么说都还是很想家的。嘻嘻,一直这么没出息。但给家里打了电话又不知道说些什么,自己傻子似的在寝室里听歌,睡觉,出门逛街,烫头发……

     (Again a not-go-home May Day holiday.Anyhow, I'v got a little bit homesick. Heehee, I'm always so alike a loser. I even don't what to say when I phoned home, just like a fool listen to the music in my dorm, sleep all day, go out shopping, change my hair stuff.)

    手机的利用率明显比以前高了,可是发出去的短信大多石沉大海,大家可能都沉浸在回家的喜悦之中,没有闲工夫搭理我这个loser。突然想起周日去Star酒吧和队友一起唱歌,还赚了50块钱。但是那么热闹的Party却把我撩拨得那么孤独。我融入不到那个氛围,还说梦想要到欧西定居,果然,我没办法解决祖国给我含蓄内敛的性格带来的羁绊。看着一群老外,不知道是什么感觉,不知道其他队员是怎么想的。

     

    烫了头发,还是很保守的,几乎没有几个人能第一眼就直接说出来我烫了头发。只是觉得有些变化,呵呵,看来钱白花了~不过,一回生两回熟么……慢慢会好些的!

     

    说到homesick吃饭的时候的那对母子真是有些让我“藉景生情”。想起去年的五一也比今年安排得有意思啦~唉,越活越失败了~明天应该会好些,和同学约了看电影《蜘蛛侠III》,然后去买心仪已久的Puma鞋和Umbo的England球迷衫和短裤……又会花掉好多M$ney。I'm the black sheep .Papa Mama Sorry啦~~

     

    唉,其实说到看电影的问题还是有些担心,怕再次触景生情,看影院里一对一对的,自己和同学一起,不免会想起自己是失败的Man。不过我真的是怕够了,估计一段时间不会考虑和女生去影院的计划……呵呵。今天和振兴同学建议时候还告诉他应该陪佳莹MM去看场电影,呵呵,但是我没有用多羡慕的语气呀~他怎么会想说给我找一个GF呢,还是在“他们院”!要是让孙建同学和素敏MM知道了,还不笑死……

     

    真的和Loneliness有缘呢。听着小窝里新传的歌Shingilo,觉得自己很凄凉呢~

     

    P.S. ………………………………………………………………

    3/25/2007

    Back to Basic

    To begin with, I want to interpret something, that is this space will mainly for my English WeBlog.
    Maybe there are plenty of mistakes here, but if the reader understand me, my aim is achieved!! Hah Hah!
     
    So, what's the feeling. Well, it seems like I'm a star and write for my official web site about my performance route. But I'm an ordinary boy...Wait, did Avril Lavigne sing a song named Anything But Ordinary?Yeh, so I'm planning to be anything but ordnary, from this site, my society!
    12/17/2006

    I am BACK!

    寝室老大的PSP里终于被下载了[死神]。可能是考虑到死神在学校尤其是偶们班里特别是俺和傻杨极其受欢迎(追下风尚,赶下潮流而已),把[死神]下载了下来。我看他玩的过程(非常不熟练的情况下),感觉系统太复杂,有些失望,没有预想中的爽。估计他的性格可能不出5天,这个游戏就被Del了。今天心情不错,只是同寝阿坤生了大病,我还是个跟本不会照顾人的蠢角色,也不知该说什么该做什么~好在后来病情好转,两个人的情绪都不是很低了……
    06.12.12 23:29
     
    百无聊赖之下,用手机登陆了QQ,登陆上之后,发现只有自己孤单地亮着,于是越发地无聊。天黑得好快,这才刚过四点钟不久,就不见了太阳。这个时候的城市是最丑陋的,因为被灰蒙蒙的颜色笼罩,像战场上激起的尘土。这样看的话,城市真的好肮脏。原来我们就生活在这样肮脏的战场中。自己好痛苦,自作自受的悔恨。原本不属于肮脏的城市,却硬要在自己的躯体上留下城市的烙印,身体被折磨,灵魂也因此而扭曲。然而,这烙印一旦印之于身体,灵魂的属性就已经改变。可能我再也回不到那些大山之中了……浮华背后的阴险奸诈撕开了城市的本来面目。而我能做的只是在布满呛人尘嚣的战场中继续忍受,甚至保护自己不至于被尔虞我诈搞得遍体鳞伤。这算苟全吧……
    用手机按这么多的字,手都有些酸痛了,而且时间也过得飞快。窗外的路灯,渐渐点亮。西边天空被楼群分割开,大楼像悬浮在褐色天空中,没了霓虹,它们都那么冷清寂寞,即便它们紧紧地簇拥着。
    再耀眼的灯虹也不可能比过太阳的光芒,所以它们选择夜里点亮。于是灯光越是热闹,城市越显得冷清……
    冬季的城市真的好冷,窗外空地上一眼就能看见的雪也不知积了多久。雪反射灯光把空间映得亮堂。却掩饰不了自己内心的冰冷。而我,又是什么时候和雪融在一起了呢?
    06.12.13 16:43
     
    躺在床上,倦意袭人。听着MP3里的歌曲,舍不得睡。“听你一遍一遍拨着手中弦/所有的哀愁娘子写……”虽然说已对中国风的歌曲不再感冒,甚至有些烦,可这首歌却在仔细聆听之后深深的喜欢上了。笑自己的鄙夷,当初在Music Radio上第一次听这首[娘子写]还以为是,哪里冒出来的二脚毛,或是什么网络烂人呢,跟本不屑一听,后来才明白,不管是什么歌手,必定要有他存在的意义。我也不再忙目的追求什么“阳春白雪”,自己认为好听的音乐才是最舒服的。可能这也是种“堕落”吧。但至少这样的我活得更轻松快活了呢……
    P.S.Please forgive me.
    06.12.13 23:40
     
    心情不好的时候不能故意假装,要做的是抓紧时间把郁闷释放出来,这是今天不小的收获呢。
    天文工作者说今天18:45分,双子座爆发流星雨,但是和“同事”、洋洋弟弟在一起度过了更快乐的时光,也就错过了流星雨的鼎盛时期,好像也没怎么觉得遗憾的。只希望,如果此刻外面夜空刚刚好有流星划过,请带走我的祝福,愿所有人都能这样开心,“洋洋大宝宝”能永远这么Qute!哈哈,又困了,查下现在几点……睡咯~
    06.12.14 23:24
     
    今天的实验做得好High啊~早上还困得睁不开眼,7点就得起床,大好的周六懒觉泡汤了,这点还是很郁闷的。骑车从博闻学区到地科馆,老远的距离,大清早的,饭也没吃,冻得动都说不会话了~其实对这次实验还是蛮感兴趣的,必竟刚刚好是本专业的实验,好奇很多。而且测铁矿石中铁的含量的这个我特别想学学,因为家乡盛产铁,没准回去还可以显白显白,仪器还是比较先进的,但用的跟本实验方法还是分析化学的实验方法,更具体的说应该是仪器分析。另一个实验就应该用的是滴定的理论了。测水质,或者一些钙镁等碱土金属也可以通过其方法测。呵呵,也不知道自己这样以为对不对。不过实验老师说得对,其实实验有时在很大程度上考验一个人的耐心和细心。可在漫长的等待中,我是忍耐不了大段的无聊。令我感觉很爽的是收到两个小弟打来的电话,淞峰莫名其妙地约我去洗澡,同寝的室友都不在吗,洗澡没人陪了。(洗澡干嘛为什么非要成群结伴去?我始终不理解。It's so personal!)洋洋则是关心昨晚喝酒喝多的哥哥我感觉好些没。中午吃完简单的午饭,看见美娜和申玉了,我发现申玉其实是挺可爱的女生,呵呵,美娜么……我也不敢妄加评论啊,日华兄还没“选”好呢。说到这点,还是有些小感触的,果然人和人是不同的,尤其是每个人的思想观念,差异真的可以非常之大。
    06.12.16 23:26
    10/27/2006

    给한선(汉善)老大的一封信,嘻嘻~

    汉善老大:
    见信好。好想见面啊,哈哈!
    这是我第二次给你写信了。是心里有些郁闷的小积累,突然想给你写封信,抒发一下自己。这几天过活过得总不在状态,憋得有些闷,在信里和你说说。
    看过你的档案,但还是忘记了老大家里有没有兄弟姐妹,我是独生子,总是能体会到一个人的孤独。记得好像跟老大说过,自己好希望有位兄长,能督导我,也可以纵容我,更可以看护我。从电视电影上不难看出,韩国的家族观念很强,对兄长也是很尊重的。不知道兄长们对弟弟妹妹怎么样呢。从小学到高中,总有兄长角色的同学关照我。更是有一个好哥哥一直支持我,鼓励我。到了大学,还有很多人给我兄长一般的照顾。可是我想,似乎我是渐渐习惯这种感觉,所以好像放慢了成熟的步子。成天嘻嘻哈哈的,心里装不下什么大事。而且一些琐碎的烂事都能烦到我郁闷不止。其实最烦人的还是自己太不会分担,但我没觉得我很自私。家里的事好像总没有我的参与,家人好像也没做好我已经长大的准备。
    自己不是个孝子,当我知道老爸车技还不好的时候买车是因为他得了骨病,当我瞒着老爸开学时间提前回到学校离开正在生病的他,当我心安理得离家上学留下妈妈一个人在家操劳背负那么多压力,当我想起姥姥跌伤后迟钝的手臂还有她花白的头发,当我想起爷爷奶奶期盼我们回家的眼神……我发现我脑子里还没有深深烙下一个“孝”字。汉善老大是不是也会因为经常要拍戏而不能回家孝敬父母呢?有时想到这些总是给老哥发短信,但还是怕麻烦到他。呵呵,之前跟关系还不错的学长聊天偶然说到这种感觉,结果被骂是心理变态,是猪头,他说都把人家当成是兄长了,怎么还会说麻烦呢。我笑笑想,也是。我都把你当成是老大了,还有什么不好意思给你写信的呢,还有什么要担心你不可能收到的呢!嘿嘿。
    想到有好多兄长的照顾,自己更应该回报上天对我的特殊关照。所以我做兄长时候,就要做的像个样子,我也有那么多的好榜样啊。
    对了,看过很多韩国的综艺节目,怎么不见老大的身影呢?有时候可以去放松一下么。其实现在为自己过活,高兴才是最好。嘿嘿,还在老大面前讲了大道理,不过这确实是我活了这二十年的“经验”啊!工作就拿出百分精力,娱乐也要尽兴,才是硬道理,呵呵!这么说来自己也没有什么可郁闷的了。
    但是有一点还是挺遗憾的,那就是我最喜欢的老大的电视剧[好人]我一直都没有机会看完,现在在网络上也找不到,连VCD/DVD都很难找。唉,希望能够找个时间一饱眼福。在现实中,老大和剧中的姜太平性格像吗?我很喜欢姜太平的感觉,而且在最早的博客文章里我也写过对这个人物风格的羡慕和向往,嘿嘿,不过那都是些小孩子似的白日梦,傻傻的。关于[狼的诱惑]和[连理枝]真的没话说,看过之后记忆一直很深,很喜欢。所以现在很期待老大的新作品啊!
    啊,和老大唠叨了这么多,发泄了这么多,心情变得好多了。反正老大肯定收不同,但即使这样,我还是要谢谢老大在我意志上的支持!好了,我就磨叽到这儿吧,用手机按真么多字还是挺累的,呵呵。
有机会再写给你。
        祝
    开心
                                                 小弟:레자 磊子 Rayza
                                                     06.10.26
     

    老大!

    西装looks

    有点傻~~

    性感~

    酷~~

    不羁~~!~!~

    深情款款~~~~~~~~

    彪悍!

     

    10/4/2006

    重要的涂鸦本子和无聊的我

    好多的书啊! 涂鸦册的一页 又一页 封面的了 还贴了张樱木的照片 在寝室里只有听歌,好无聊啊~都傻了~
     
    经常在本子上写些没用的无聊的东东,它也陪了我好久,先前的那个本子已经被我封存起来了。那时高中时候的回忆了。本子里什么东西都有,涂涂画画,写写擦擦的。
    P.S.一个人呆着真的好无聊啊~~~~
    9/26/2006

    病后……

    这次生病可玩大了,说话都用不上力。心想最好的情况也得是肺炎,坏一点没准就是……呵呵,我现在浑身上下大汗淋漓,还能开自己的玩笑,还不赖,死也值了!其实让我感到值得的是我得到的关心。阿坤已经不是第一次在我生病的时候陪我去看医生,为我忙前忙后。我也不知道怎么道谢,我欠得太多了。打完点滴烧发得厉害,竟冷得不成样子。恐怕真的要死了。呵呵,跟哥哥要了件外套,哈哈,哥哥总是看到我生病的样子。真的,穿着他的外套,很温暖。我这个弟弟还真事儿多啊~回寝室还有小侯,又买水果,又是电话问候,真的好感谢关心我的人。
     
    真是搞不懂,面子之于人有这么重要。但转过来自己想想,亦受其害匪浅啊。越长大成熟,越不能避开面子的力量。要不要去做,已经不用得到自己内心的认可,而是看面子上是否能过得去。机会正是在犹豫间溜走的。这么想来,人还真是很傻,自己内心的愿望不能得到直接的抒表,还不如会叫的宠物们。
     
    P.S.贴几张朝族大一小弟们游戏时的图片,你们要加油啊,学习和生活!可不能像我一塌糊涂啊!아자 아자 화이팅!
    9/13/2006

    上课

    关于上课,我还是想贴几张今天的图。
    上午第二节本没有课,可是第一节快结束时,收到短信,要我去替组长上一节课。我也知道帮这个忙了,只是我除了一本英语什么都没带,已经上了一节的英语了,这节再看恐怕我会恶心的死去,这样很惨!他们的课又是大四的专业课——“油罐与储油器”,简直就是天书,我本不是学这个的,听了也没有用处,但是还是答应了,帮组长分担些……
    图一:
     

    看看我有多无聊

    图二: 

    老师讲得这么好,组长他对得起老师么~~

    图三:

    右侧这个是중화 형吗?他和组长是一个寝室的!好像就是他!哈哈~他不认得我~偷拍的!

    图四: 

    实在无聊,照一下我的英语书吧,刚写的名字!7~~~~7~~~

    P.S.每张图片悬停后都有注释,哈哈,我都加了注释!这堂课上的有够无聊,先是看英语书,整理笔记,又是听歌,再着小睡一下,后来就是玩手机照相了,不过照相照得我蛮high的,哈哈!

    9/5/2006

    回到学校

    天阴阴的,冷冷的,但是心情还是不错的,因为일화哥哥请客吃猪大骨啦!

     刚回学校的时候就阴雨天,还刮着风,凉凉的。可是似乎没有影响到高涨的心绪。大庆的天,总是很开阔,乌云也似乎有着博大的胸怀,这是在河北的山区小城所感受不到的。只是,这样的天气总提醒着我的离愁,我对家里是那么的挂念。老爸还有老妈,还有年迈的姥姥,好多人。

    投入到工作中这种感觉会减轻一些,因为真的是很忙,筛选新生事件苦差事啊!好在站里人齐心协力,大家都很卖力的工作,招新工作也异常顺利。呵呵,第二天海选的时候,本来早上还阴雨绵绵的,到了海选开始的时候,天空竟然晴得出奇,我们收工的时候,又像谁导演的一样,再度下起了雨。说起来还真的是有天的帮助呢,天时地利人和啦!

    흐~흐~일화 형又请我吃饭了,哈哈,不过这次挺不好意思的,主动要来的饭请。吃我最喜欢的猪大骨!아~~~~~~~尖叫ing。

    p.s.据说男生的尖叫可以吓死猪,这次猪大骨……햐~햐~~

    一个人的寝室,听歌倒是种享受。天凉凉的,挺适合猫在被窝里的,哈哈~

    第二天,终于忙里偷点闲,晴朗的天气,准备到萨区走走。

    8:30 在湖畔的超市买了电池,给mp3充饱了电,便在蓝天白云还有一个明晃晃的大太阳下面等那趟慢吞吞的25路。秋天的风还是有些凉的,加上前几天的阴雨,被风吹还是有些冷。心里小责备25路的慢,害我被风吹,吃车辆驶过扬起的尘土。但是太阳晒得我心情还不错,心好久没有今天这样像大庆的天空一样开阔了。

    7/2/2006

    好心情 좋아요

    2006 07 01
     
    今天好多人要请我吃饭啊~是因为都知道我心情不好吗?即使不是的话,我还是要由衷地谢谢他们,감사 합니다~早晨心情还是不好,不想吃也懒得动,所以没吃东西就去站里讨论迎新生的事。讨论终于出了结果,到了中午组长请我们(我和学姐许迪),因为饿,所以吃好多。和站里的“亲人”们谈工作什么的,从来不说自己的私事,没提也就暂时没想。没头没脑地一顿狠吃!(反正是组长请客~)其实自己也知道,还是心里有事,所以撒气似的吃,委曲啊~记起来昨天坐车听歌,想念起了我的姥爷(外公)。岁月已经把他的模样抹得模糊,除了那两张挂在姥姥(外婆)家东屋墙上永远不变的黑白照片。最疼我的人,在我懂得他最疼我之前去了,痛恨自己的记忆,除了模糊还是模糊。不记得是哪首歌,也不记得是什么勾起了怀念,听着听着,眼眶就湿了。我装打了个呵欠,柔去眼里的泪。有好多话想和姥爷说,有时候我真的很委曲,没人再和您一样疼过我,我想的说的写的梦的,您都知道吧?我知道您一直在天上听我牢骚,派人来安慰我,照顾我……我好想回家,好想姥姥……
     
    同寝室的兄弟因为考试,紧张焦虑得了热伤风和气管炎症,终于扛不住,在我和小侯(另一同学,热心仗义。今天也要请我吃饭,估计是怕我还郁闷,感动+感谢~)的配同下去了校医院。开过药后,一起去上网,我要找些迎新生的资料。日华哥打来电话说要请我去吃饭,我大一最后一次他请的牙祭。他知道我心情不好,一直在说打气的话。很感激~天气闷热,中午吃太多,再加上情绪低落,本来自己超喜欢吃的猪大骨和水煮肉没吃几口。吃完了回来路上,总问我吃饱了吗。我说已经很吃不下了,其实冬天吃这些更合适。他看我还是没大兴致便痛快答应,我开玩笑说,那我冬天晚饭就全包给你了!哈哈!因为要到站里开会,没送他回寝室就分开了。路上回味着他的话,真的很感动。他说暑假回来别换手机号,省得找不到你。我说,玩一回失踪,刚好我们要换寝室。他说,那我就到你们地科馆里堵。我说,下学期我们没有到馆里上的课。他说,那我就问,说我有个弟弟是你们学院的叫해도,总能找到。我只幸福地笑,然后说,不会换号。唉,在小报广告上发现掉队的哥哥,被我误解为学姐的哥哥,喜欢喝酒的哥哥,照顾我的哥哥……我是真的很幸运啊!姥爷在天上保佑我的!
     
    P.S.姥爷,您放心吧,我会好好的。
     
    2006 07 02
     
    关于英格兰的失败,是在我预料中的,所以反应没很强烈。可是总不能说不是个强队呵。真是很遗憾,得到具体的情况时候还是很佩服的,毕竟10人应战能挺到加时到点球,很不容易了!Becky又受伤了,唉,鲁尼那个小子居然那么莽撞,被罚下去了。呵呵,说是阿根廷的裁判,哈哈,难怪英格兰会受此对待了~哈哈,巴西也出局了,好高兴啊,终于可以改变一下了,四支欧洲队伍决出前四名,应该是很少见的。巴西的球迷别骂我啊~
     
    P.S.那天老爸打电话说的话,让我现在还很郁闷!
    7/1/2006

    思维跳跃症

    昨天做了个奇怪的梦,梦见了一个特定时间才能想起的人(汪洋洋大宝宝)。情节什么都记不得了,可是一定一起玩得很开心。到底做了些什么呢?偶遇,在我的家乡,他到承德旅游。(他家是哪里的我倒是忘记了~)他一个人,我也是一个人,突然地相遇,让两个人都很喜出望外。谈了那么多,压马路,我还记得是从离宫出来一直走到南营子大街,在建行大厦附近的肯德基里喝百事吃薯条……两个人玩得不亦乐乎。突然想,为什么会梦见他?不是说日有所思夜有所梦么,可我一直都没想起过他啊。我想,可能是上天给我提个醒,我该想想他了,哈哈哈~好肉麻,好恶心~
    这样一来,我想起了好多人。刘老班长那个猪头,最后一次见他时,他瘦了那么多,是念书累的吗?记得上网遇见时,正在为失去一段感情而痛苦呢。唉,现在还好吧,我还欠你一顿粥城的饭呢,回去一定请!
    还有文彩超好的立儿立儿(均为儿化音),不知道怎么样了,没有一直联系,不会已经把我忘了吧?不会吧~呵呵,(原来的)我给人的印像一般都很深的,不会忘的!可是要是真忘了的话,我会失望死的~呵呵。
    关于“菜会美”吧……(因由杰伦的专辑《叶惠美》的台湾繁体版的封面“叶”有些像“菜”,于是便有“菜会美”的泛滥)也不知道为什么管韩大美女叫“菜会美”。我们的药学专家,她现在怎么样了呢?现在肯定已经放假回家了,每次都放的那么早,让人心生忌妒。她还在使用“踹死你”这句本世纪最前叶的最经典台词吗?哈哈。
    许建民老师。他对我的影响很大,对我很照顾,可是似乎有些放纵我了,以至于高一的时候没有怎么听他的话。他辞职了之后,八班还是很强,有几位老师带着他们,不会像没有亲人的孩子呢。啊,老师们,又想起了我的老师,赵老师,菜(才)老师,商老师,孙老师,高老师,于老师……好怀念高中的生活啊,好像又再次上了一遍他们的课……
    张尔忠老师(初中1、2年级英语)。我的英语启蒙老师。非常爱读书,他要走的时候我们一个班级的人都不想让他离开的,后来还对新来的老师实行了非暴力不合作政策,唉~不知道那是不懂事的我们让您操了多少心啊~我还记得您对我们说过:“英语是学会的,不是教会的。”
    张建伟(高中1、2年级英语)老师。是我最有感情的一位老师,也是我开始想熟练运用英语的重要的老师,从他那里我知道学习英语时可以受用终生的,并不是为了学习而学的,英语的用途很大!之前总是E-mail联系,后来自己也懒了,一直没有联系。您一家搬到承德市后,就很少见面了,偶尔见过一次,很高兴您没忘了我们……
    学吉他的老师,李阳。呵呵,说起来很惭愧,我和李老师本是同一届的同学,他现在已经是吉他高手,N个吉他手的师傅了。可我的吉它还是那么烂,唉!我自己也愁啊~还有那个很喜欢在李阳的小小的阴冷的潮湿的练琴房里呆着的铁蛋同学,对他印象很深,好像到秦皇岛念高中了吧~呵呵,其实是个小孩子,可在那个环境下……变得……唉,不说了~~
    对了,小翟猪猪的妹妹——茜。那天到她Q-zone里去看的时候,发现有他的留言,说肯定认识我,就是不知道我是谁,呵呵,我就肉麻地回复她说,我是你坤哥哥的死党木卜,估计他应该知道了吧,我们一起支持周杰伦啊!~!~!~!~

    终于,还是群定了自己患有思维跳跃症,总是能想很多,上课时候,估计就想这些了吧,所以没听好课,考试的时候临时抱佛脚,弄得自己怪累的!还有这么多字大部分是用手机打的,累死了,手机的键键们都要抗议了,老爸能不能给我买“本本”啊!?
    前天、大前天、大大前天……我可都做梦梦见我用“本本”写博客了!

    就墨迹到这吧,学校电子阅览室太热了,出去买瓶百事,为班里攒瓶盖换足球做做贡献吧。
    P.S.学院的Geochemistry Major的足球可是超强的哦!
    6/22/2006

    无聊ing

    日志被弄得好长啊~~
     
    唉~就快考试了,还没有毅力复习,看来真的只能挂科了!
    所以又写了一篇《无聊ing》。
     
    同寝室的同学都有在疯狂的自习。早上等我起床时已经没有别人了。而且晚上要很晚才回来,和他们比较起来,真是很惭愧啊~
     
    为什么总是学不下去呢?昨天的一个实习动员大会把心都给动员野了,so wild!去秦皇岛的时间越来越近了,还要爬山、凿石头、背仪器、学仪表的使用,아~~~~쓰기~
     
    용빈他们昨天就结束了考试,估计如果没有实习的话,这几天就可以回家了~羡慕啊~
     
    일화 형他们什么时候走呢?都可以回家玩了吧~我那么想回家到底干嘛呢?不知道,自己都不知道,唉~我也很용빈(私底下叫용빈小垃圾~하하)了~~